Stuck in a Rut!

Soooooo it's been awhile! I have no real excuses! I have just kinda been in a personal rut... Don't know what my deal was or is! My house is DIRRRTY and I can't get ahead with the cleaning! And between Christmas, New Mexico, Zane's Birthday, and starting a my Mary Kay Business I have alot to catch you up on one of my good friends has moved away!

Although, I have other friends that i see weekly, it just not the same! I am not sure what about her makes her special and dear to my heart! Maybe it is because she was there and going through one of the most important times of my life! There is something very special about sharing the experience of a growing belly, the hormones, fear, excitement, reality, grossness, and love of what our future holds! There were a lot of emotions that I have shared with her in the short time we have been friends! But I love her! Always will! Although that I don't talk to her as often I think of her daily! 

I think I have been trying to feel the void of not having her around.  I had two people in the same day tell me they were pregnant and one other the next week! I am sooooo jealous and now thats all i can think about is having a baby to share the experience with these girls! I want that special bond again. Now while this isnt the only reason it does play a role in it.  I also want Zane to have a sibling that is close to the same age and grow up with kids the same age since it seems like we are going to be here for awhile! But anways, I just need to get that off my chest and maybe it will help get me out of my rut!

Thanks for Listening!